What is love?

I want it.

Taylor Swift

Taylor Swift is beautiful and talented.

She's my inspiration and she's helped me through so much. She's made me realise what love really is, and what a girl should settle for. She's told me what it's like to be heartbroken, and I relate to everything she says in her lyrics. I've felt how she has, I'm not alone. 

She takes words right out of my mouth and makes them beautiful. She's helped me through a lot of things.

I couldn't ever thank anyone more. Ever. 

Part 2 — Your First Crush

Okay, so. This story goes waaay back.
My first proper crush was two years ago, and I've never ever told them I liked them so it's still a secret :-)
I didn't tell anyone at the time and I only told a few about it now.
He never noticed me, and it killed me to know how far away I was from ever being able to call him mine. I remember when a friend of mine kissed him, it hurt so much that I cried for hours even though I hardly knew the guy. He was my reason for going where I did all summer and I was able to just watch how beautiful he was. He was my definition of perfect and anyone who dated him I was extremely jealous of, and I hated them.
I can't explain to you how much I really did love him back then. Even when I see him now, two years later, I somehow get all the feelings rushing through every single part of my body as I fall back in love with him. I don't know what it is that attracted me to him so much but now, whoever I see who looks the slightest bit like him I can feel myself falling back in love with him, or whoever it is.
I haven't spoken to him for maybe a year, or longer. I see him around every now and then or he's on my facebook news feed. I just can't help but think how amazing he was once to me and how I felt for him and sometimes I wish I had done more to make him notice me though at the time I did everything I possibly could.
That summer was amazing. After two years, strangely, I somehow still love him.

Okay so...

On Tumblr I've been doing a different sorta letter thing and I've decided I'm gonna do different one for Blogger starting day two. :-)

30 day challenge. day 01 - relationships and love. :-)

i’m single and i probably will be for a while :-)
i don’t mind being single, i actually like it. i don’t go around being a major slag every weekend either even though i like not having any relationship responsibilities and not hurting anyone by being like that. i wont believe in love until i actually have experienced it myself, which i haven’t and I probably wont until I’m mature enough to understand what love is. from what I see and what i’ve experienced, love and lust really hurt no matter how strong you are |’:

i really don’t think that in a relationship there needs to be sex. most people think they’re only really in love after doing it but so many people waste their virginity on someone who’s lied or cheated on them and I know for a fact I wouldn’t have sex with anyone until I’m really settled into a relationship or even married l: 

sometimes though i wish i was in a relationship just to feel loved and to love someone. i get easily jealous and envy cute couples, but c’est la vie. 

Can't ever explain to you how much I love this boy.

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour, but heaven knows I'm miserable now.